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(photo by Cassidy Curtis)

Images say more than words....

So I invite you to check the pool of photos that our friends have already uploaded for us. 

Stay tuned, though... Many more to come!

<a href="http://www.flickr.com/groups/playawedding">Alex & Rich's wedding</a>

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We had a whole week of celebration. It felt like a "mini Burning Man week" in this very private and artistic <a href=http://www.playa-escondida.com> jungle resort</a>, that culminated in the most amazing night of fantasy, love and emotion, on Saturday, April 12th!

If I could only describe....

A Magical Afternoon/ Evening ~

With amazing warm loving people around us ~

Giving us so much love ~

SO MUCH ~

We had...

<a href=http://www.latchoandrea.com>Gypsies</a> (of course!) entertaining guests with passionate flamenco music before the ceremony ~

A paradise setting only for us, our friends and our families ~

The most perfect weather and sunset ~

A flock of pelicans flying above us while we exchanged vows ~

Colors everywhere ~

Smiles everywhere ~

Hugs everywhere ~

Later...

A candlelit dinner right on the beach ~

Mariachis serenading us with romantic Spanish songs ~

Delicious food and margaritas ~

The moon right above us ~

And a sky full of stars ~

(A true movie set!)

Then...

Fireworks to follow our first dance ~

(And as if it wasn't enough...)

Firedancers came next ~

And...

To finally turn up the heat and the party vibe ~

Costumes & Blinky lights were distributed ~

Which resulted in even more happy faces ~

And even more booties shaking on the dance floor ~ 

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Ah! I can't wait to see all the pics from our friends and from our amazing photographers Jenny and Tyler!!! 

But we are heading to Bali tonight! YAY!!!!!!!! The magic continues!

Miss you all, dear readers ~ Celebrate with me through these beautiful images from our friends who are generously posting their shots for us!

xoxoxox


LOVE YOU ALL

And remember...

DREAM

&

BELIEVE!




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San Francisco City Hall, Feb 21 2008.

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love is a place
  	
love is a place
& through this place of
love move
(with brightness of peace)
all places

yes is a world
& in this world of
yes live
(skilfully curled)
all worlds

<em>ee cummings </em>

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My sweet sweet readers,

Thank you so much for all you dear comments and happy wishes! We are truly moved by your gifts, cards and notes. It means a lot to us to be hugged by such a loving community ~ Smooches to you all!

Besides, I feel like I've been so quiet and "on the surface" lately... It's been difficult to pause and find the necessary solitude to exercise some wild writing and deep spilling here. So I thank you even more for sticking with me through this time! I am so amazed to find out how many of you are lurkers of this blog!!! You make this blogger girl very happy! I'll come back with lots of colorful posts after the honeymoon, I promise! I have so many new ideas for the blog and I really  can't wait to dedicate myself to all of that in a couple of months... 

Till then... I am...

Finishing up on all the planning for our beach wedding ~

Dreaming about our upcoming travels through Mexico and Indonesia ~

Lurking and soaking in your posts out there (YES! Big time!) ~

Finding inspiration in <a href="http://rang-thecoloursoflife.blogspot.com">The colours of Life</a> ~

Reading <a href="http://www.stampington.com/html/artful_blogging.html"> this beautiful magazine</a> with a stunning article by <a href="http://persistingstars.blogspot.com"> a very talented friend</a>, a colorful article by <a href="http://hulaseventy.blogspot.com"> our favorite photobooth Hula goddess</a> and an interview with my long time <a href="http://penelopeillustration.com/blog">illo muse</a>... Plus many many other <a href="http://dispatchfromla.typepad.com">artistic</a> <a href="http://www.creativethursday.com">juicy</a> <a href="http://parisbreakfasts.blogspot.com">finds</a>!

Tagging magic notes with <a href="http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=10154288"> these gems</a> crafted by an enchanting <a href=http://dancingmermaid.com/blog> kindred </a> ~

Filling the well with the "Creativity Du Jour" at <a href="http://sparkletopia.squarespace.com">sparkletopia</a> ~

Drinking <a href="http://www.samovartea.com"> Samovar Masala Chai </a> (a new addiction!) ~

Feeling in LOVE with RC & our LIFE together ~

Wishing you the most exquisitely happy day ~

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San Francisco City Hall, Feb 21 2008.

I know... I know... What is going on???

We did it. We couldn't wait until the official wedding day this coming April, so we ran off and got married last week! 

Well... Okay... Maybe we could have waited... But the life of a Brazilian gypsy who is marrying a US citizen in Mexico, requires some amount of paperwork done... Therefore, we opted to get that paper stuff out of the way, and also take the opportunity to proclaim our love sooner than later!

It was a very intimate and special ceremony at the City Hall "rotunda" ~ in the heart of the city of San Francisco.

Let me tell you... So much for our free spirit! We thought we would do a "drive thru" kind of deal...

But as soon as were facing each other, holding hands, looking into each others eyes, and we began to recite our vows.... We both fell under a spell. 

Suddenly nothing else mattered

We got lost in each others eyes 

Our feet weren't touching the ground 

We were floating away 

Way up in the sky

The stars were all around us

We had tears falling down our cheeks

And we spoke softly and steadily

As is our love: calm and deeply rooted.

There was eternity in each word and each instance

There was an earnest wish for mutual devotion

There was purity

And a trancelike wonder

Bliss

True Love

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I highly recommend it. :)

More on the "actual wedding" plans soon.



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Beach Wedding, Melbourne, 2004. 

<p>First and foremost! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! You are all sweethearts AND I'll happily eat a cupcake on behalf of our friendship today :P</p>

<p>It's been really busy around here, dear readers.  My time is really spread thin right now. There is that movie trailer I am producing (w/ lots of chihuahuas!!!!), which is due a week before the wedding, the wedding plans, and also, the ongoing life changing plans: visa issues, new job, new career, new dreams! Nothing can fall off the list. Everything matters. I wish I could draw a picture of how it all looks like right now, but alas... This phase will have to remain a blur in my head and in yours too, I'm afraid.</p>

<p>The good news is that after a few weeks of serious overwhelm, I finally feel like I've settled in the moment and that I am dealing with this phase better than I originally expected I would. I am finally committed to enjoying the present time. It is a grand moment in my life! Love and Dreams connected and coming true all at once.</p>

<p>I am planning on writing a comprehensive post about wedding stuff next week. I really want to share with you my invitations, the decor, the style of our ceremony, the location and the honeymoon too. So look out for my next post!</p>

<p>For now...  Since my time is limited (and not nearly enough) to really daydream deep and "howl" with you, I've decided to list and share some of my recent discoveries:</p>

<p><big><strong>The Female Business Paradigm</strong></big>  by <a href="http://www.wisdomhousecatalog.com/welcometowisdomhousegallery.html">Shiloh Sophia McCloud</a> <br />
(found in the <a href="http://www.openexchange.org"> Open Exchange Magazine </a> in the East Bay). </p>

<p>The author Shiloh seems quite fierce and lovely. I am going to check her work further when I get a chance...  Her questions remind me of the amazing Lynne Franks book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Seed-Handbook-Feminine-Create-Business/dp/1585420158"> SEED </a>, another great book to read if you're starting your feminine enterprise.</p>

<p><big>Ten Decision Making Questions:</big></p>

<p>1) Does this decision excite, nurture and sustain me?<br />
2) What or who is being served and blessed by this offering?<br />
3) What is the impact of this on others, the environment and me?<br />
4) Where is the main source of profit; is it accomplished by completely humane means?<br />
5) What will the impact on my family/ community be? What will be compromised?<br />
6) Is it aesthetically pleasing? Creating beauty? Adding instead of taking?<br />
7) Is this fulfilling my purpose - a deep place of truth within myself?<br />
8) What and who do I need in order to make this work?<br />
9) Is love at the center of my motivation?<br />
10) When I see this project at the highest point, are all of the above questions still able to be answered truly?</p>

<p><big>Ten Success/ Self Value Questions:</big></p>

<p>1) Have I defined reachable and frequent journey points/ goals?<br />
2) What would success look like for me?<br />
3) Have I given up my story of what success looked like before?<br />
4) Have I clearly articulated what resources I personally need first, and then for my business?<br />
5) Do I have rewards and celebrations outlined all along the way?<br />
6) Do I have systems in place for celebrating team members?<br />
7) Have I established a self value practice, and does this practice include how I price my work and am compensated for it?<br />
8) Do I have an understanding of the distinction between my free services and paid ones?<br />
9) Have I honored my business by setting up systems to support the increasing flow of business as I reach monetary heights?<br />
10) Do I allow my small accomplishments to affirm that I am doing enough, instead of thinking that I am never enough or that I can never do enough?</p>

<p><big><strong>A note from the Universe </strong></big></p>

<p>I signed up for something called TUTS adventure club. Now I receive <a href="http://www.tut.com/AdventurersOath.htm">a note from the universe</a> every morning. It makes me smile! A LOT! The first note I received was this:<br />
<em><br />
Yes, Gypsy, it's time for "good news and bad news"...</em></p>

<p><em>You, Gypsy Girl, have just been named the luckiest person alive! The absolute luckiest! No one luckier for trillions of miles!</em></p>

<p><em>Can you imagine? Having an advantage in all of your adventures? Good fortune smiling upon you? Joy, passion, and dreams coming true? Folks secretly admiring you from lowered sunglasses? New friends seeking you out? Massive abundance effortlessly drawn into your life? Opportunity and adventure only ever a breath away?</em></p>

<p><em>Wow! I'd say things are really, really going to start changing for you!!!</em></p>

<p><em>The "bad" news?</em></p>

<p><em>You only ever had to visualize.</em></p>

<p><em>The Universe</em></p>

<p><em>Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! <br />
</em></p>

<p><big><strong>The Power of Now </strong></big></p>

<p>My talented friend <a href="http://www.annthology.com"> Ann</a> told me about the book <a href="http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/1577314808/bookstorenow57-20"> <strong>"The Power of Now"</strong></a>. I must say this book is quite revolutionary!! I am shocked at how often I am NOT PRESENT in the moment. Check it out. This has really helped me deal with overwhelm lately. Thank you, Ann! </p>

<p><big><strong>Zen Howl</strong></big></p>

<p>And last, but not least... I've been listening to another great <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Zen-Howl-Revealing-This-Great/dp/1591790514"> book </a> by my dearest mentor, Natalie Goldberg. I absolutely love her! She is not only an amazing writing teacher (from whom I still ought to learn a lot from), but also a warm and wise human being. So after reading some of her books, I've started to listen to them as well. Pure indulgence! I often listen to Natalie on my way to and from work, and this ritual never ceases to fill me with joy and insight.</p>

<p><em>"Zen howl is the sound of our masks falling away. When the masks we hide behind wither and die, there is immediate intimacy between ourselves and the world. This hint of intimacy - of touching something out of reach - is what ignites our longing to write and our desire to practice meditation." <br />
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<p>That is all I got now, folks! Keep howling and smiling!</p>

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Rockaway, Nor Cal, Jan 2008.

"What is your truth? Ask your heart, your back, your bones and your dreams. Listen to that truth with your whole body. Understand that this truth will destroy no one and that you're too old to be sent to your room. Move into your truth as though it were an old house. Walk through each room. See, hear, and feel what it is to live there. Try to love what you find, and remember the words that come to you as you explore. If you embrace it, if you are faithful to it, your truth will reward you with unimaginable freedom and intimacy with yourself and others. You won't land in a world made to order; some people in your life may not like what you write. But those who remain will be allies, people who breathe deeply and listen. It will feel good to be seen completely and loved as you are." <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0312115369?ie=UTF8&tag=gypgirgui-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=0312115369">John Lee</a><img src="http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=gypgirgui-20&l=as2&o=1&a=0312115369" width="1" height="1" border="0" alt="" style="border:none !important; margin:0px !important;" />, <em>Writing from the body</em>

It turns out that when I began this journey, my truth was living in a dark place inside of me. At that time, I was afraid my life could change dramatically if I listened to my truth, so I decided to hide it. What if the love of my life went away? What if my friends went away? What if the job and the money went away? What if I were just too strange to be accepted anywhere? Who would care? Who would hold me? 

So I kept my truth in the shadows of my doubts and insecurities for years. At the same time, I was always looking for a sign, a promise that I would be safe if the truth came out. I wanted to embrace it, but I waited for the day I'd know for sure I had the talent, the day I would have something amazing to show, the day my art would sell and when all the longing would be met. Meanwhile, my truth was locked in a trunk full of judgment. Or I kept it down in the basement where I didn't go very often. I packed it in the small closet with all those old suitcases, sketchbooks and aging photos of my childhood. I thought I'd leave it there until the time was right. I secretly hoped my truth would leave, actually. I hoped it would disappear just like that big box of clothes I'd been planning to take to goodwill...  I confess that I even wished I could settle for less and be happy without it.

Truth does deserve better, I know. However, it never gave up on me either. It stayed. It followed me. It took me for many walks on the beach. It showed me where it thrives. It showed me how it glows in moments of poetry, color and daydreaming. It joined me in solitude and in nature. It called me to trust and believe. It begged me to follow my path. To open up more and more about my secret wishes. It made me feel unique. It taught me that feelings of resentment, fear and overwhelm are not my truth, and therefore, can gently be dismissed when they show up. It also brought me new friends. It made me love myself more. It established itself as the center of light in my life. It proved to me that I am worth it.

All this juicy stuff!!! But there is still so much leaping to be done. And it is scary. It makes me want to nap a lot. Facing my truth even makes me want to wash the dishes sometimes!

I'm wondering though, if the best way to stay connected and engaged in the creative path is to really invite more truth in everyday. What do you think?

What is the one truth you must honor this year?





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Hard & Soft Edges, Melbourne, Australia, 2006.

I said:

<em><big>I prefer to agree because I am afraid to disappoint, you know?
</big></em>

She said:
<em>
<big>It is  okay to have some hard edges.</em>
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Update: I got a few interesting emails and questions about this post... So here is a bit more on that: Sometimes, some of us, just keep on saying "yes", agreeing and giving too much while others are more comfortable receiving and setting their boundaries. This post is a milestone, a place for me to note that it is okay for us to honor our limits, edges. We have to believe that life will be more interesting (as some of you said), if we are really true to our choices.

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Coupeville, Pacific Northwest, Dec 2007.

<big><em><strong>The year ended with...</strong></em></big>

a relaxing trip to the Pacific Northwest

some quality time with my "to be" in laws

lazy lounging rainy days...

opening magic gift boxes filled with trinkets and treasures from Central America

a cup of fresh coffee made especially for me by RC's dad every morning

a girly day of lunching, shopping and talking wedding stuff with RC's mom

artsy walks exploring the islands' many galleries

listening to Jazz and Brazilian tunes 

snuggling up on the couch to enjoy oh! so many movies!

drinking beer, wine and eating cookies

sleeping in the most comfortable bed warmed by 
an electrical blanket (what an indulgence!)

gasping for air every time I crossed the Deception Pass

driving through wide open fields dotted with old barns

celebrating my birthday with a candlelit dinner 
in a cozy restaurant overlooking the sea

witnessing a flock of a hundred wild geese gracefully take flight

and like me, head to a warm exciting new place...

the new year: the year of flight! 


<em><big><strong>The year started with...</strong></big></em>

adorable guests staying with us

heavenly sushi

lots of dancing and a bit too much drinking!

a walk on the beach 

jumping seven (cold) waves while making seven wishes

the love and humbling care of my friend Cat, 
who insisted in drying and cleaning my wet/sandy feet 
with her wool gloves!!

a gorgeous sunset

lots of napping 

a short term project for me to produce: a movie trailer

inspiring talks about change in two thousand and great!

<a href="http://www.threecupsoftea.com/Intro.php">three cups of tea </a>

<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Old-Friend-Far-Away-Memoir/dp/1564559599">an old friend from faraway</a>

a wedding coming up in 3 months

10 pounds less than last year! (wait. how did that happen?) 

an intention: to be a more consistent blogger

a quote: 

<big>"the big question is whether you're going to say a hearty yes to your adventure" Joseph Campbell</big>

a question:

<big><big>are you?
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Gemma's colorful steps in San Francisco, Fall 2007.

I'm taking small gentle steps...

toward the Holidays reds and "blues"

toward true kindness and compassion for me and others

toward a more centered way of dealing with challenges

toward the possibility of making money doing something I love

toward figuring out what it is that I love to do

toward more self confidence

toward bringing more balance into my routine

toward a simpler and fuller life

toward accepting everything exactly as is 

toward learning to let go... over and over again

toward the diligence to just start over

toward feeling less guilty for leaving

toward finally getting my green card and the freedom to choose my life's work

toward truly embracing my life as an immigrant

toward claiming new dreams

toward learning how to ask for help

toward being comfortable with "not knowing"

toward the brave & free spirit I used to be

toward making my life matter

toward mapping this world of color and light inside me.
 
toward finding a way of expressing what is inexplicable, immaterial, vast, ethereal, profound...

toward defining and dissecting what fills me... with such longing.

toward living and loving, exquisitely aware.

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Wishing you Holidays filled with LOADS of

Snuggles, Love, Light, Hope...

And Spicy Tender Ginger Cookies!

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All of our dreams are already coming true!

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Ground view, northeast of Brazil, 2007

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People Who Live 
by Erica Jong

People who live by the sea
understand eternity.
They copy the curves of the waves,
their hearts beat with the tides,
& the saltiness of their blood
corresponds with the sea.

They know that the house of flesh
is only a sandcastle
built on the shore,
that skin breaks
under the waves
like sand under the soles
of the first walker on the beach
when the tide recedes.

Each of us walks there once,
watching the bubbles
rise up through the sand
like ascending souls,
tracing the line of the foam,
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Sparkling Girls, northeast of Brazil, 2007.

Thank you so much for your warm welcome back! You are all such sweethearts!
 
The weird thing is that after I posted, some strange emotions started to arise such as: "I'm so damn rude to show off happiness. To go away and then return proclaiming so much joy? That is not fair and people will hate you for that. Don't you know people have a life? Children and husbands to care for... A lousy boss to report to... A bank account and bills to keep up with... An infinite number of errands to run? You are so selfish. How can you recommend them to drop everything and run to a deserted island? Like that was even a solution for the world's problems..."

Oh boy. That is to say the least. My inner demons are not easy on me. But I went on with my business at home pretending to forget. Kissing my honey and smiling, but truly just burning with those horrible thoughts inside, planning when exactly, I would go back and delete that outrageous entry... Hopefully soon enough, I thought, and before that one commenter would write: How dare you?

Then, I opened a book about miracles... Ahhh... And I found a revelation that maybe you can also relate to:

"our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,
 our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
 it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
 we ask ourselves: who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
 actually, who are you not to be?
 your playing small does not serve the world.
 there is nothing enlightened about shrinking 
 so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
 we are all meant to shine, as children do.
 we were born to make manifest the glory that is within us.
 it's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
 and as we let our own light shine,
 we unconsciously give others permission to do the same.
 as we're liberated from our own fear,
 our presence automatically liberates others."
 A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson

I can't help but wonder now... 

Does that ever happen to you? 
Are you embarrassed to be happy or successful sometimes?
Are you timid when it comes to feeling pleasure? 
Are you shy about your accomplishments?
Do you have a hard time accepting your joy?
Are we too comfortable feeling pain and frustration?
Are we pushing happiness away by thinking it should be a "quick fix" instead of a lifelong experience?
Do we interrupt happiness with our guilt feelings (creating then DRAMA!)?
If we give ourselves permission to feel joy and happiness, will we get more of it?

I'm sharing my joy with you! Take some! Bring me some!

Let's start a JOY MOVEMENT!

Joy loves company too! =D



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Somewhere in the northeast of Brazil, 2007.

Sorry for my long absence, dear readers... It's just that... 

Well... 

I know I should have at least posted a note to say I was okay... Sorry. But before I knew it, I was gone.

The thing is that...

I was overwhelmed by a need of "less talk and more action"! 

I felt that I was over thinking everything. 

I felt that I was overstimulated by the "wonderful lives of others" (and their battles too...). 

I felt that I needed to clear my head and create space for the next step, the next job, the wedded life, the new year...

I  felt that I had lost sight of my own magic! 

I felt that I just needed to find silence and look inside. 

***

The truth is that I really thought about blogging and updating everyone many times... 

But...

I felt that this time was not to be lived and shared. It was just to be lived.

I felt like moving, not sitting in front of the computer. 

I felt the need to get out of the room to go outside, breathe fresh air, dive in salty water, walk walk walk... 

I felt the need to talk in person.

I felt the need to be one 

with my deepest thoughts, fears, dreams... 

***

The good news is that this is by far the best time of my life. Everything is falling perfectly into place! Everything that is happening makes sense. And I never thought I'd say this so firmly and so soon: I am truly living a life I love!

After all... How lucky am I to be able to unplug just like that?

<em><big>Unplug:</big>
     
1.	to remove a plug or stopper from.
2.	to free of an obstruction; unclog.
3.	to disconnect
4.	to remove from an outlet.
5.	to become unplugged.  </em>

Ever tried to completely unplug from phones, tv, radio, mail, driving? It's total freedom I assure you! And you will unclog all the energy streams and detox too!

During this time away I was reminded of how much I enjoy this sensation of disconnecting from the "ever so plugged in" world. To be faraway, in remote places, surrounded by village kids, simplicity, color, and preferably, with the sun kissing my shoulders... That is real bliss! 

That to me is living fully, without distractions.

***

In my return home though, I also got the confirmation that I definitely entered a "nesting" phase! Even though my gypsy heart loves an adventure, it is at my home in San Francisco that I am finding my comfy zone. I am learning how to be home and to manage all the time I have to do all the things I love... And to be still. To be productive and at the same time at ease... I'm just loving what I have right here: the quietness, my studio, delicious food, my favorite yoga studios nearby, the house itself and all its colorful rooms, the routine of waiting for RC to come home and eat dinner with me... the list goes on...

The journey continues...

My goal is to keep on taking more photos, making more art, writing more wildly and living even more fully and aware. My goal is to begin a new career and continue with the blogging.

So here I am.

ALIVE! 

Feeling whole. 

AND ALSO

Planning my wedding...

YES! 

In Mexico - But of course, a proper gypsy needs a destination wedding! ;P

(so much for the nesting talk...)

Here are some yummy links I found while researching wedding stuff recently:

Wedding Photography: <a href="http://www.leighmillerphotography.com"> Leigh Miller</a>
Pure "eye" candy! She inspires me because she quit her job a year or so ago to pursue her artistic dreams. Look at the fantastic results!!! Too bad I can't afford her : (

Amazing boutique hotel in Mexico: <a href="http://www.lasalamandas.com/eng/accomodations/sol.php">
A pink bohemian dream!!</a>

<a href=http://www.haramararetreat.com/accommodations.aspx> a Yoga Haven </a>
Interested Anyone???

More news and pics to come soon...

HUGSSSS

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Sunday Nap, At home in San Francisco, Fall 2007.

During the fall, just around four clock in the afternoon, there is an irresistible warm light that stretches through the hardwood floors of my living room. That's when I turn into a kitty cat. I put on some jazz, I grab a blanket, a big soft <a href="http://www.jengray.com/archives/000850.html">pillow</a>, a cup of tea and a couple of poetry and art books. Then I just lay right there on the floor and soak in the tenderness of that moment. Hmmm.

Yesterday, I was inspired by my friend <a href="http://www.persistingstars.com">Maddie</a> to make some delicious homemade chai and nurture memories of my own bravery. I pondered and pondered, taking in the sunshine, the sweetness, the smells of cinnamon and cardamom and the recollection of my brave stories. 

I remembered times when I was completely alone in faraway remote places, without speaking the language or knowing where I'd go next. I felt really brave and I also felt a sense of wholeness when I stood on my own and made myself company in the middle of nowhere.

So, after a few more sips of chai, I came to the conclusion that the bravest thing we can do is to love ourselves just as we are and where we are. We don't actually need to travel far to take that stand. To accept all the little (and not so little imperfections) that we have. To be interested in our own journey and all the oddities, challenges and mistakes that make us so unique. To trust that we do enough and that we are enough.

I also remembered a passage I recently read in one of Pema Chodron's books that spoke of true bravery. The story was about a man who was enjoying himself on a boat ride at dusk. Then, he saw another boat coming down the river towards him and he thought how nice it was, that someone else was enjoying summer at the river just like him. But then, he realized that the other boat was speeding up and coming faster and faster towards him. So he began to yell and ask the other boat to stop or turn... But the boat continued to come faster and unmistakably towards him. He then stood up on his boat, screamed and jumped up and down and... Well... The other boat still kept coming towards him... And in fact, smashed right into him. When that finally happened, he realized that it was an empty boat.

Pema talked about the fact that this zen story shows our whole life situation. There are a lot of empty boats coming towards us all the time. We're always reacting, screaming, jumping, trying to stop all those crazy boats. But they are empty and there is nothing we can do to really prevent them from crashing... 

What if we could just stop our minds for a second, and rest in that little tiny gap between us and the boat? What if we could meet everything that comes our way with that easiness and openness in our minds? Now that is a really brave concept, right?  

So I laid there on the sunshine quietly with all these thoughts... Trying to gently find that space between myself and uncertainty... In that instant, with my head resting on the pillow,  it didn't matter if I was going to succeed, regret or get through it. I was open and brave.

What does bravery mean to you? 

***
And via <a href="http://www.superherodesigns.com/journal">Andrea</a>, a moving lesson on bravery <a href="http://online.wsj.com/article_email/SB119024238402033039-lMyQjAxMDE3OTIwNzIyNDcyWj.html">here</a>.



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Not sure why the comments are being rejected on my previous post. Sorry about that! :-(
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Hmmm... I have a feeling that I'm terribly late on discovering this <a href="http://www.oriahmountaindreamer.com">amazing woman</a> and her writing!

Oh well... It is never too late to be amazed, is it?! 

And if by any chance I'm not the only one that has been missing out... Here is my invitation to you:

Find a good spot to watch the sunset this evening 
Make it there 30 minutes before the daylight fades
Wear cozy colorful socks 
Bring a warm blanket
Read this poem
Sit with these words
Watch the free spectacle 
Contemplate what is <a href="http://zenamoon.typepad.com/weblog/2007/08/my-sacred-life-.html">sacred</a> in your life
Be grateful and
Be sure...
You are not alone.

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<strong>The Invitation  </strong>
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer 
	 
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dreams
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your
fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand on the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after a night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the center of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

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They say the first step is going into your childhood and remembering... Not sure why this is quite a challenge for me... But I'm really enjoying the journey too.

<strong>Remembering</strong>

I don't remember much...
But I do remember summers spent in the country.
I remember the long rides and the rough roads,
which seemed as endless as my thirst for adventure.
I remember how my city eyes took no time
to adjust to the new palette,
and how the warm hues
weaving through the rolling hills
added an unexpected twist
to the tapestry of my life.

I don't remember what anyone said...
But I do remember being lost in wonder.
I remember the bucolic landscape
and how I'd craved it
without even knowing it before.
I remember my face lit up with glee
and the sense that 
there was finally no distance
between myself and the world.

I don't remember if we sang...
But I do remember the blue wagon window down,
the cool breeze kissing my rosy cheeks.
I remember the smell of tall grass
and the occasional glimpse of cows
leisurely eating, resting on the shade
and gazing at the green open fields
in somewhat of a meditative state.
I remember thinking:
This is how life should be.

I don't remember who welcomed us...
But I do remember the mango trees.
I immediately knew what they were
as soon as the air was filled with their sweet fragrance.
I carried with me stories of how my mother
used to climb and sit on the sturdy branches,
and how she picked and peeled
ripe, yellow, freshly picked mangos.
I remember longing to taste a mango
that came from a tree, not from a store.
And then I planned to live forever
in abundance, just like that.

I don't remember the kids names...
But I remember watching them attentively,
so I could learn from their every move.
I remember them playing catch,
running freely through the corn fields,
splashing loudly in the river
and feeding the chickens.
I remember we all shared laughs,
messy clothes, and something more
subtle and hard to pin point.
I think what we shared was simple joy
and the same kind of lightness in our hearts.

I don't remember doing much...
But I do remember all the smells, tastes, images, feelings.
I'm learning that I've always been introspective
and deeply lost in thought and study.
I remember a phrase I read before
that said: "I'm a fool for beauty."
And that is what I have been all along...
And that, once again, is what I'm proving to be 
in this poem... Just a fool, 
feasting madly, in the allure 
of these childhood memories.




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