Sparkling Girls, northeast of Brazil, 2007.
Thank you so much for your warm welcome back! You are all such sweethearts!
The weird thing is that after I posted, some strange emotions started to arise such as: “I’m so damn rude to show off happiness. To go away and then return proclaiming so much joy? That is not fair and people will hate you for that. Don’t you know people have a life? Children and husbands to care for… A lousy boss to report to… A bank account and bills to keep up with… An infinite number of errands to run? You are so selfish. How can you recommend them to drop everything and run to a deserted island? Like that was even a solution for the world’s problems…”
Oh boy. That is to say the least. My inner demons are not easy on me. But I went on with my business at home pretending to forget. Kissing my honey and smiling, but truly just burning with those horrible thoughts inside, planning when exactly, I would go back and delete that outrageous entry… Hopefully soon enough, I thought, and before that one commenter would write: How dare you?
Then, I opened a book about miracles… Ahhh… And I found a revelation that maybe you can also relate to:
“our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves: who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
actually, who are you not to be?
your playing small does not serve the world.
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
we are all meant to shine, as children do.
we were born to make manifest the glory that is within us.
it’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
and as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give others permission to do the same.
as we’re liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”
A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson
I can’t help but wonder now…
Does that ever happen to you?
Are you embarrassed to be happy or successful sometimes?
Are you timid when it comes to feeling pleasure?
Are you shy about your accomplishments?
Do you have a hard time accepting your joy?
Are we too comfortable feeling pain and frustration?
Are we pushing happiness away by thinking it should be a “quick fix” instead of a lifelong experience?
Do we interrupt happiness with our guilt feelings (creating then DRAMA!)?
If we give ourselves permission to feel joy and happiness, will we get more of it?
I’m sharing my joy with you! Take some! Bring me some!
Let’s start a JOY MOVEMENT!
Joy loves company too! =D