Somewhere in the northeast of Brazil, 2007.
Sorry for my long absence, dear readers... It's just that...
Well...
I know I should have at least posted a note to say I was okay... Sorry. But before I knew it, I was gone.
The thing is that...
I was overwhelmed by a need of "less talk and more action"!
I felt that I was over thinking everything.
I felt that I was overstimulated by the "wonderful lives of others" (and their battles too...).
I felt that I needed to clear my head and create space for the next step, the next job, the wedded life, the new year...
I felt that I had lost sight of my own magic!
I felt that I just needed to find silence and look inside.
***
The truth is that I really thought about blogging and updating everyone many times...
But...
I felt that this time was not to be lived and shared. It was just to be lived.
I felt like moving, not sitting in front of the computer.
I felt the need to get out of the room to go outside, breathe fresh air, dive in salty water, walk walk walk...
I felt the need to talk in person.
I felt the need to be one
with my deepest thoughts, fears, dreams...
***
The good news is that this is by far the best time of my life. Everything is falling perfectly into place! Everything that is happening makes sense. And I never thought I'd say this so firmly and so soon: I am truly living a life I love!
After all... How lucky am I to be able to unplug just like that?
Unplug:
1. to remove a plug or stopper from.
2. to free of an obstruction; unclog.
3. to disconnect
4. to remove from an outlet.
5. to become unplugged.
Ever tried to completely unplug from phones, tv, radio, mail, driving? It's total freedom I assure you! And you will unclog all the energy streams and detox too!
During this time away I was reminded of how much I enjoy this sensation of disconnecting from the "ever so plugged in" world. To be faraway, in remote places, surrounded by village kids, simplicity, color, and preferably, with the sun kissing my shoulders... That is real bliss!
That to me is living fully, without distractions.
***
In my return home though, I also got the confirmation that I definitely entered a "nesting" phase! Even though my gypsy heart loves an adventure, it is at my home in San Francisco that I am finding my comfy zone. I am learning how to be home and to manage all the time I have to do all the things I love... And to be still. To be productive and at the same time at ease... I'm just loving what I have right here: the quietness, my studio, delicious food, my favorite yoga studios nearby, the house itself and all its colorful rooms, the routine of waiting for RC to come home and eat dinner with me... the list goes on...
The journey continues...
My goal is to keep on taking more photos, making more art, writing more wildly and living even more fully and aware. My goal is to begin a new career and continue with the blogging.
So here I am.
ALIVE!
Feeling whole.
AND ALSO
Planning my wedding...
YES!
In Mexico - But of course, a proper gypsy needs a destination wedding! ;P
(so much for the nesting talk...)
Here are some yummy links I found while researching wedding stuff recently:
Wedding Photography: Leigh Miller
Pure "eye" candy! She inspires me because she quit her job a year or so ago to pursue her artistic dreams. Look at the fantastic results!!! Too bad I can't afford her : (
Amazing boutique hotel in Mexico:
A pink bohemian dream!!
a Yoga Haven
Interested Anyone???
More news and pics to come soon...
HUGSSSS
Comments (16)
I'm so glad you are alive and well. I've been wondering bout ya. But I had a feeling you were A. O. K.
*hugs*
Sarah
Formerly Literary Bohemian.
New blog: Www.spiralcreek.wordpress.com
Posted by Sarah | December 14, 2007 12:25 AM
Posted on December 14, 2007 00:25
so glad to hear that all is so wonderful in your amazing world.
thinking of you and your gorgeous guy.
(((hugs)))
Posted by chocolate covered musings | December 14, 2007 12:58 AM
Posted on December 14, 2007 00:58
Welcome back dear Alex...your time away sounds magical and rejuvenating and oh goodness, just wonderful. I am so happy for you and the changes that are happening in your life. It sounds like a beautiful time indeed...and I wish nothing but more the same for you. Looking forward to hearing more.
Love to you.xoxoxo
Posted by ceanandjen | December 14, 2007 12:35 PM
Posted on December 14, 2007 12:35
you sound so beautifully rejuvenated, so full of joy and peace ... sounds like amazing changes :)
unplugging sounds like it was an amazing experience for you, how wonderful ... happy wedding planning!!
Posted by daisies | December 14, 2007 7:04 PM
Posted on December 14, 2007 19:04
Good to have you back darling. I'm about to take my own unplugged time but I have your email address and we'll be in touch.
Yes - I'm heading home to see if I have any of that nesting instinct left myself.
More, by email.
xx
Posted by Frida | December 14, 2007 10:17 PM
Posted on December 14, 2007 22:17
Alex, welcome back! You were missed. It seems like this "unplugged" time was exactly what you needed. So many exciting things going on in your life at the moment! It's good to hear you sounding so happy and full of joie de vivre! xoxox
Posted by Paris Parfait | December 15, 2007 5:35 AM
Posted on December 15, 2007 05:35
Oh hooray!
I knew in my heart of hearts that you were okay. But you know, I missed you. Glad that all is well. And how fantastic about the new career idea. Look forward to hearing more.
love from Marrakech
Posted by Maryam in Marrakesh | December 15, 2007 11:34 AM
Posted on December 15, 2007 11:34
bravo to you for knowing what is best for you. yes, yes, yes to that! unplugging is indeed a very good thing...we should all do it a bit more often...
love to "hear" such joy in this post! have fun planning...
Posted by liz elayne | December 15, 2007 10:46 PM
Posted on December 15, 2007 22:46
I'm glad you're back, especially since I had just found you on your last post! You are very inspirational. Having a gypsy soul, too, I understand that strange feeling when all of a sudden "nesting" feels good. I resisted it for so long, and now I love it. I found that you can still be your gypsy self, leave the nest whenever you want, but it is such a delicious feeling to have that nest to fly home to - to renew, rest and revive.
Good luck with the wedding plans.
Posted by Jeni | December 16, 2007 8:28 AM
Posted on December 16, 2007 08:28
It's good to see you back. But it doesn't surprise me that you feel the need to "disappear" now and again - after all, you are the gypsy girl, and gypsy's must wander, right??
Your happiness shines through in your words~always a lovely gift :)
Posted by Becca | December 16, 2007 7:24 PM
Posted on December 16, 2007 19:24
so glad you are well and enjoying life. sounds amazing! i also can't wait to hear about the wedding plans as they unfold. pink and bohemian sounds perfect. xo
Posted by pink sky | December 16, 2007 7:33 PM
Posted on December 16, 2007 19:33
It sounds like you listened to what your mind and body needed...but you were so missed! Can't wait to hear about all that is new in your life, and very happy to have you back...xoxoxoxoxo!!!!
Posted by Stacie | December 16, 2007 8:37 PM
Posted on December 16, 2007 20:37
welcome back sweet thing - you were missed but oh how i understand what you mean about being away and needing the time away:) awesome photos!
xoxo
Posted by stef | December 17, 2007 3:51 PM
Posted on December 17, 2007 15:51
you were missed! ! !
Posted by jen gray | December 17, 2007 7:13 PM
Posted on December 17, 2007 19:13
I so completely 'get' it
~ I have done this ~
withdrawn from blogging etc
in order to LIVE otherwise
what do I have to WRITE
filled with LIFE????
I am so happy you are back
with all your gusts of
inspiration and I am going
yes I surely am ~ to that
yoga retreat ~ i really need it!!
Great photo's bts:)
Posted by maddie | December 20, 2007 7:25 AM
Posted on December 20, 2007 07:25
I'm so happy for you! It looks like you are walking along the sandy shores of Paradise. So beautiful. I can feel an tension in my shoulders releasing just looking at this photograph. Ahhhhh!
Posted by susanna | December 22, 2007 10:43 AM
Posted on December 22, 2007 10:43